So I wanted to dedicate this post to my Husband for so many reasons – first and fore most because he is awesome! More importantly, not only has he been there every step of the way in my ThyCa journey – he’s dealt with all 50,000+ emotions that comes with being diagnosed/treated for cancer.
When I was first told I needed to get a biopsy done, I was terrified and inconsolable. My Hubby, Spencer, said over and over that it would be fine – there was no reason to worry. In my opinion he was being insensitive but come to find out, he just had no clue how serious the situation was. It was his mom and sister that finally got through to him that it’s not just an over dramatized response – this is really happening.
I still remember the day that I was upstairs in our bedroom and Spencer came up to talk – he ended up breaking down and crying. It was at that point he told me how helpless he felt and didn’t know what he could do to help. I honestly think it was a turning point in our relationship. We both needed each other and would fight to no end – together!
Once diagnosed, the reality of the situation hit both of us very hard. Expanding our family was once again on hold, the countless doctors appointments we continued to miss work for, figuring out how to break the news of cancer with our kids, and all the stresses that came with the over abundance of bills that were coming our way. I know I was a mess, and that’s putting it lightly. And even through it all, Spencer comforted me, consoled me and the kids, was constantly keeping family in the loop when I couldn’t get through the newest update, and just all around supportive and positive. One of the best things he did, was just to let me vent – because it’s exactly what I needed. He would let me cry on his shoulder as I wondered what was coming next. He never discounted how I felt by saying I shouldn’t worry about it. There were days that he might not have been as patient, hey it’s a tough job to keep up with someone who is on a constant roller coaster – filled with stress, anxiety and negative thoughts. When I came off as positive and always so uplifting in my Facebook posts, it was partly because I already vented to my family and friends, but mostly my husband. Not to say I wasn’t positive, but it definitely takes work to continue to be positive when there was so much back to back bad news.
I have heard so many people who have been diagnosed with Thyroid Cancer that have lost friends, spouses, or just didn’t have the support. And I am so grateful to have so many people on a daily basis that have continued to be there every step of the way.
To my husband: my one, my from now on – thank you! Thank you for your love, support, and constant comfort. I can’t say I wouldn’t have gotten through it without you (only because I’m a fighter) but you made the ride a hell of a lot better. I love you and can’t wait to see what the next couple of years has in store for us!
Rachel Platten says it best – “It’s a better place since you came along!”
And thank you for always reminding me you’ll “Stand by You” (aka me!).