Goodbye 2015, C’mon 2016!!!

We did it – made it through another year and I have determined that 2016 is going to be my year! Oh and yes, I’m finally posting a “end of the year” post lol. I’m only 19 days late….but better late than never.

So 2015 was a year full of emotions, trials, tribulations, and the “old/new” me. I started the year weak and confused but ended it confident AND finally finding my new “normal.” Back in January, I was only 4 weeks post-op following my TT and left neck dissection. Still very dependent on family and friends – not just physically, but emotionally as well. February and March were filled with doctors appointments, radiation, and a roller coaster of emotions that came with each not-so-great results at my appointments. Over the summer I went through anxiety attack after anxiety attack while battling depression before finding the right meds. And with each medication change, I had to go through it over and over again – feeling hopeless. Finally getting some good news in September, letting me know that the radiation had done it’s job and cleared my lungs so just waiting on the 12 month visit to find out about the rest (c’mon March 2016). But this was the first time that we had a few steps forward without falling backwards.

So in case you noticed, I said I wanted the “old/new” me because for most people, they wish for “new year, new you” but that’s not what I wanted at all. I wanted the OLD me – before ThyCa. I wanted the person that could stay level headed about simple stressors like bills or getting overwhelmed by kids or a dirty house without having an anxiety attack. I wanted the person that could ride a bike or run down the street with my kids without having an asthma attack. I wanted the person that had long pretty hair, the person that didn’t have to cut off her hair because it was falling out in clumps due to my medication increase (because I have the good cancer….*rolling my eyes*). I wanted the person that didn’t feel exhausted 24/7 or fall asleep every time I sat down which caused a lot of missed alone time with my Hubby. But this past fall, with the help of my therapist (lol), that’s when I realized – I will NEVER be that person ever again. Like ever. When I was diagnosed with Thyroid Cancer, I was no longer that person. Then when I went through surgery and radiation and everything else in between. All of this changed me into the person I am today. So this year I am willing to accept that and just hope/pray that I become the best person I can be. With that, I hope it’s a mix of who I used to be and who I’ve always strived to be. I hope to control my anxiety (with the help of my medication lol), by knowing my triggers and knowing when to take a break. I hope to learn that I can spend time with my kiddos without physically keeping up – I never turn down some cuddle time. I hope to find other ways to be more active and maybe more natural ways to be more alert so I never miss a minute BUT to allow more time of REST so that I can take full advantage of the time I’m awake. But more than anything, I hope to be the best person I can be – no matter if that’s the old OR new me!!

So one of my goals for 2016 is to spread more awareness and reach out to more people about ThyCa. Just in the last 6 months, I have had 3 people come to me with a friend that had recently been diagnosed. They all wanted me to reach out for support and a listening ear. I can’t tell you how much that meant to me – especially to someone that started off with not even know what the Thyroid did. Just like with this blog, I not only wanted to give insight for family and friends that wanted to know how I was doing – I wanted to give HOPE to those going through the same thing. I was lucky enough to have my Hubby’s cousin who allowed me to blow up her phone with questions on a daily basis. She will NEVER know how much it meant to me. To have someone that I could reach to for questions and for someone to fully understand every step of the way of what I was going through. That’s what I want to do – be there and spread hope.

If you are someone that needs a ThyCa buddy to vent to, just message me and I’m your girl! We need to stick together and be there for those who are in need.

4 thoughts on “Goodbye 2015, C’mon 2016!!!

  1. LAH says:

    So happy to have found your blog 🙂 I’m also 27 (though no kiddos!) but it is interesting to hear the perspective of someone who is still quite young and definitely not expecting this diagnosis/journey.

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    • I’m so glad you found me too!! I can’t tell you how inspiring it has been to find others going through the same journey with the same issues. Not that I would want anyone to have to deal with this, but it’s nice to have others that understand.

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  2. Sharen says:

    I am so thankful to find your blog. I was recently diagnosed with thyroid cancer and I was looking for a thyroid cancer tattoo. I just happened to click on your blog and seriously it was a blessing to see that I’m not alone. I’m waiting for my lymph nodes to be biopsied for possible have a neck dissection. But I’m just sick and tired of people saying “it’s a good cancer” no cancer is a good cancer. I’m scared of what is to come.

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    • I am so sorry for just seeing this. I took a break last year during my pregnancy/first several month with my 3rd baby. I can’t tell you how happy that makes me – I created this blog for exactly that reason! I hope things are getting better for you!!

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